So, big news, I decided last October after gaining back 30 pounds that I was going to take the necessary steps to see if I could get approved for weight loss surgery. This decision did not come easy for me, as it was always my last hope, the most drastic step I could possibly take. In a lot of ways it's admitting defeat - admitting that I can't do it on my own.
But I've reached a point where I don't think I can do it on my own. And I need to lose the weight. And almost all the things I'm afraid of related to the surgery - what if I can't drink alcohol? How will I enjoy an all-inclusive vacation again? I'll never be able to eat at Fogo de Chao and get my money's worth! These are all things that have kept me from achieving my long term goals. So I'm making the decision to remove even the possibility of these "cheats" from my diet so I can focus on how I'm going to eat for the rest of my life.
Today I went in for my 3rd nutrition appointment. These are not high stress at all. I've been on so many diets that I know what I need to do as far as nutrition, it's just getting myself to do it. My favorite part of these so far has been when I asked her what kind of cheese I could eat in a turkey roll-up (turkey breast rolled up with a slice of cheese). I was concerned it had to be low-fat or non-fat cheese. She just said that it didn't matter, I wouldn't be able to eat that much of it, so go for the real stuff. OK, that's pretty easy...this is going to force me to stick with portion control in a way that I haven't been able to before.
Next month I'll be going in for my psychological evaluation, my 4th nutrition visit, my fitness evaluation, and my second appointment with the surgeon.
I'm still trying to wrangle with my insurance (a whole other issue for another day), but hopefully I am getting close to figuring out what I need to do.
More later! I need to stalk some more insurance people.